It's a strange feeling. I've done this trip a number of times, but they have been holidays. This is different - it's the start of a longer journey without a definite end-date. It's the start of an adventure that I've been dreaming of for years. But where I've been filled with unclear feelings of anxiety the last weeks, now that I've bought my ticket, I'm actually feeling a calm within - everything feels right, the anxiety is gone, trust and the sense of adventure has returned.
And on this cold, dull, grey, wintry May morning in Amsterdam . . . I'm imagining the warmth of Mediterranean sun .